a new [great] day

Today has been a really great day.

Which gives me much hope because of all the gray and gloomy days I've had for the last 4 weeks.

We met Ryan's family for lunch at the Spaghetti Factory. Then, with Christmas cash in hand, I went on a shopping spree and got some really great pieces to update my wardrobe. I RARELY buy clothes for myself -- so to buy a LOT of clothes was such a treat.

Then it was date night tonight at Fondi pizza in Gig Harbor (which was amazing) -- and later tonight we'll watch Planet of the Apes.

Anyway, I haven't cried in 2 days over Baby O -- and my house is cleaned and I actually have cooked 2 meals and went grocery shopping.

I know that I will have gloomy days soon enough again. And that's OK with me -- because I still miss Baby O and I'm still sad to not be pregnant. And I'm also sad for a friend who I found out is also going through an all-to-similar situation.

But for today -- I am rejoicing in a good day that gave me quality time with my family and gave me a fresh wardrobe.

I'm thinking I'll make it to church tomorrow. I don't feel any anxiety over it, which I definitely was feeling this time last week.

Oh, and one more thing -- I never realized HOW MANY PREGNANT WOMEN THERE ARE!!! Everywhere I looked today there were pregnant women and babies. That was really the only hard part to my day . . . the constant reminder that I was not pregnant.  But I think I handled it OK. Just some jealously and sadness.