My life hasn't gone as expected -- maybe you can relate. I thought being a mom would happen easily and come naturally. It hasn't. I thought I'd never lose a child. I've lost 4. But in the midst of it all, I'm finding healing, comfort and meaning in Jesus. And that is the best life of all.
Lyndsay's Story: The day her life came crashing down
Thank you Lyndsay, for sharing your story. I can't imagine what you have had to endure. Your precious children are beautiful. Thank you for sharing them with us. Rachel
February 28,2013…the day my world came crashing down. Let me back up a little.
On December 11, 2011, I married the man of my dreams, my best friend, and love of my life! This was the beginning of my “Happily Ever After.” He had 2 beautiful boys, who took me in and continue to allow me to learn how to be a mom. We knew from the beginning that we wanted to expand our family but decided to wait a short while. That ‘while’ turned out to be shorter than we expected. In February 2012, we found out that we were expecting. While this was sooner than planned, we were overjoyed! The next day however, complications landed me in the emergency room for the beginning of the journey we would have never chosen or expected. Over the timespan of about a month we learned that my pregnancy was ectopic, and we would not yet be having the baby we dreamed of. Nothing in life compares to losing a baby. The emptiness inside is heartbreaking. This however, was not my first experience with loss. After some poor decisions, when I was younger, I found myself pregnant in high school. Although timing was not good, I have always believed that children are a blessing and embraced this pregnancy to the best of my ability under the circumstances. At about 11 weeks, I was told that there was no heartbeat and that I would soon have a miscarriage. Time eventually does allow for some healing, although not a day passes, that I don’t miss what might have been.
Skip forward again and we are in October, 2012. It was time to try again and right away, we found ourselves pregnant again! This time the joy and elation came with a little fear. After losing two babies, I was cautious. I had an appointment scheduled and everything was progressing as expected. I was getting very big, very quickly, and we kept joking that there had to be two babies in there, with my size. At about 12 weeks (one week before my appointment) I started having some complications. I called my doctor and she had me come in immediately. We walked into the ultra sound room expecting the worst. We walked out with the best news we could have asked for. We were expecting twins! They were growing quickly and each appointment encouraged us. Everything was great. Both babies were growing at the expected growth rate. They were both very active in momma’s tummy. One of them loved to hear me sing. He would start dancing every time! Two days after the 20 week mark, I woke up having contractions. A quick trip to see my doctor, revealed the earth shattering news ....