There is the cutest, sweetest little creature. You haven't met her yet. But she's real. I so wish I could post a picture!
I have a few photos of her, and every day I scroll through them (ok, multiple times a day.)
Sometimes I simply appreciate her absolute cuteness. Other times, I pray for her. Most of the time, I just wonder if one day soon she will be ours.
I hope we get to keep her.
As I relish in her cuteness, I remember this isn't just a baby we might adopt. She is a child, who will one day be an adult. As a baby, child or adult ... She will be a part of our family forever.
FOREVER. What a big word. Sometimes I wonder ... am I really old enough yet to be making decisions about FOREVER?
It is so easy to imagine dressing a baby up and proudly showing her off at the park, church, restaurant, zoo, mall, grocery store, the north pole. Seriously. I mean what woman doesn't want to tote around the most gorgeous little creature and have everyone looking, and smiling and cooing at your precious bundle?
But forever reminds me that those are just moments in a lifetime. There is still a lifetime to go.
One day, we'll be helping this little one potty train. We'll get through the terrible twos, and threes, and thirteens. We'll work until midnight on her science fair project. We'll clean her up when she's sick, and brush her off when she's fallen down. We'll cry with her when the Junior High girls don't let her into their clique. We'll remind her life will go on when a boy breaks her heart. We will watch her graduate, cheer her on at games, and walk her down the aisle.
We'll teach her about Jesus. We'll tell her how God loves us so much, He wanted us to be apart of his family forever.
Just like we love her. Just like we want her in our family.
Today, we chose forever on paper.
But a year ago, I chose forever in my heart.
We love you little miss. Welcome to your forever family.